Sometimes, I Wonder Why I Write

Two years ago I hit publish on my first blog post.  I remember being exhilarated...and scared.  What was I doing?

I've always loved writing, and I'm pretty sure there's a book inside me somewhere, hoping to come out.  For years I talked about it to anyone who would listen.  One day my cousin, who teaches high school composition and literature, told me if I wanted to be a writer, I needed to write.  She suggested I start with a blog.

Which sounded like a simple idea.  And most people would jump in and get going.  But I tend to over analyze most decisions in my life, so I took some time to think about it - which turned into an entire year.  I debated and pondered and thought, until one day I remembered my favorite Walt Disney quote, "The way to get started is to quit talking and begin doing".

Three days later, Two Teens And Their Mama was born.

It's been two years, and sometimes, I wonder why I write.  A blog is sort of like a baby. It needs constant attention and love to make it grow, which is exhausting some days.

But then I remember all the friends I've made.  I've met people from Canada, Montana, Florida, New York, South Carolina, California, Texas.  Amazing women that I wouldn't know existed if I hadn't entered this blog world.  Next week I'm travelling to my first blogging conference with six of these friends, and I can't believe how lucky I am.

I remember my first entries, and I see how much I've grown as a writer. Each post gets me closer to the confidence I'm seeking to let that book out.

I remember that I need this creative outlet, to keep my anxiety down, and make order of all the jumbled thoughts that run around in my head.  My husband thanks the blog every day, I think.

And mostly, I remember how much fun it is.  To take those thoughts and turn them into words.  To read comments, and interact with others.

Two years since I hit publish, and big changes are ahead.  My boys have grown, and my blog name doesn't really make sense anymore.  There will be a new name and a new design, but the same old me.

I hope you'll keep coming back, because in the end, the answer is clear.  I write so that someone will read.  And smile, or laugh, or think.  That's the best reason of all.

Today I'm linking up with the lovely writers at Finish The Sentence Friday.  This week's prompt was "Sometimes I Wonder About My Writing.  I keep on and on because"...